Yet another prison like day

Hey I'm back! *wait*

I've been here all along anyway..

That's the problem don't any of you think so? I feel like I'm a wall able to reflect anything that were voice out against me. Well that basically what a wall is anyway.

Okay cut the crap. I feel like zombie again today. Half ass sleepy even though i sleep like a pig, the damn fever who love me so much and of course, nobody's home yet. Its almost 3 o'clock, my sister will be back soon. (well the fact that its not gonna change anything makes it no different) i still feel alone and bored. But yeah, that just me. Back in primary, before primary, the world really have been so cold on me. Pretty lame ass story don't you think?


CHANGE SUBJECT

I woke up, take a look on my dinner table, end up going back to my room. Why? There is no food for me to swallow. Well, its normal though. ( Hey you over there! don't feel sad for me! I hate it! )

Stuff never really change in me since i was little. Seeing weird things, people come, people leaves, people dies, yeah it never change. I keep being in the middle of all the damn things that happen which i can really said ( F*ck off nels! ) where i couldn't really said it.

Crap i need to go to toilet, behold people! Brb.

Before that, listen to this aite?

Secondhand Serenade
Half Alive

It's four am, I'm waking up to your perfume
Don't get up, I'll get through on my own
I don't know if I'm home
Or if I lost the way into your room
I'm spiraling into my doom
I'm feeling half alive but I know one day
You and I will be free,

To live and die by our own rules,
Free..
Despite the fact that men are fools.

I'm almost alive, and I need you to try
And save me.
It's okay that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight, tonight.

Well excuse me while I get killed softly,
Heart slows down and I can hardly tell you I'm okay
At least 'til yesterday,
You know you got me off my highest guard,
Believe me when I say it's hard.
We'll get through this tonight
And I know one day you and I will be free

To live and die by our own rules,
Free..
Despite the fact that men are fools.

I'm almost alive, and I need you to try
And save me.
It's okay that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight, tonight.

And you touch my hand ever so slightly
And the deadly look she cast upon me
I won't regret, I won't regret
I won't regret. I won't regret..

And I was trying to disappear,
But you got me wrapped around you
I can hardly breathe without you
I was trying to disappear
But I got lost in your eyes now,
You brought me down to size now.

I'm almost alive
And I need you to try and save me.
It's okay that we're dying
But I need to survive tonight, tonight
Tonight..

I'm almost alive, and I need you to try
And save me.
It's okay that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight, tonight.
I need to survive tonight, tonight

Hey I'm back..

Look, i just have this feeling that i want to live as a normal person. Yes you can said I'm normal but to me I am not normal. Normal person don't get sick always, normal person do not have EYES of the curse and normal person will always carve smile in any part of their hearts. But i don't.

Gahh..i just lost my mood to type. Its still early, but i will just let my favorite song take over for now.

Oh yeah, was hopping she will msg me today but, hmm..i guess she's busy eh..



Avenged Sevenfold
Dear God

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
Purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again, oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
And all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold her when I'm not around,
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
When hope begins to fade...

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
Hope is hard to find

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold her when I'm not around,
When I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again